Saturday, December 03, 2005
This is a personal post from me, something I wouldn't normally write in my blog. If this type offends you this isn't the norm here. I know many of you know that this summer my sister was staying with us. She was originally staying with us for a long time. I was so overly busy It turns out that she is now living with our dad which, I think is the best thing for her anyways. I could never take the place of her parent. She needed so much more than I could give her with 3 kids all I have going on here. With that said thats not what this post is about. I have always been a worrier. Sometime while I was busy with Aggie here I had less time to worry about usual stuff. I let my usual things slide by with no worry because I had to many things to take care of. Sometimes I can worry about some dumb things. (Like is our pool going to pop and bust in the yard and all of our neighbors will be mad at us) Right away when Aggie wasn't here anymore I fell into my old trap of worrying about stupid things. I decided that I wasn't going to put myself through that anymore. God doesn't want me to be miserable worrying about things I can't control anyways. Now I tell myself there is nothing I can do about it so why waste my time. (Don't get me wrong I've had moments when I have thought of silly things to worry about, and big things too, but I've reminded myself that God is bigger than any problem I am having) I remember the song the Veggie Tales sing "God is bigger than the boogie man" I wanted to share this in my blog because I feel free. Free of worry. Okay so I guess everyone has a little bit of worry in their lives, but I feel my worry was a hindrance to my family. I am glad to say I know I can't fix it, that I have to rely on God. I guess I can write this now because I don't have any major issues going on. I hope that when I do have issues going on that I can say the same thing. That I'm not in control and I have to lay it out for God to take from me. After all I believe he is in control of everything.